so to keeps you guys up to date, here's a quick rundown on what's happened in the past 4/5 months....
The Green Guy (or TGG) and i were engaged for a while. about 8 months roughly. but that's since fallen apart. long story there. i don't know if i'll ever tell it here in full.
but anyway...
he got himself a new girl only weeks after he dumped me (that's the bit that i was most pissed off about). i'd seen her in his dance class too. and yeah i was totally jealous. she's everything i'm not. slim, gorgeous, dances well, gets along well with people.
yeah, as u can guess i was rather depressed. he'd replaced me with someone i could never even hope to be.
the dance crew made it to the finals of australia's got talent and i am so proud of them!
i went to melbourne for the filming of the semi finals. that's when i first actually properly met TGG's new girl. i shall call her Pixie.
i offered to drive her to teh airport, so we met up in teh city and went for maccas. we got to chatting about random things and then we discovered it was too late to drive, so we took the train instead. that was still fun.
the next day i flew down and pixie picked me up from the melbourne airport. we hung around the city and did some sight seeing and just enjoyed chatting about anything and everything. i love her. she is really an awesome girl.
once we got to the studio for the filming, we were both kinda tipsy (lol) and excited to be on a TV SHOW!!! *squeal*
we got to meet red and grant. that was so much fun. and when the boys performed we got up and screamed our little hearts out.
there was also a band that had entered, they unfortunately didn't make it through to the final, but u should check out their myspace :
once we returned from melbourne, things took a slight turn for the worse for me.
seeing Pixie and TGG together made me remember that i felt so alone and that it wasn't fair that he'd found someone so soon and i still had no-one. so i kinda made a few mistakes.
long story short, i'm just glad that daddy had the strength to help me, when everyone else seemed stumped with what to do. i know i scared some people and i never meant for that to happen.
the way that i was feeling that one night, i'm pretty sure that if i was left on my own, my family wouldn't be complete anymore.
it's like i was stuck in a black hole. no light or hope could make it through. i just wanted it all to end. and i was on the brink of making one of the worst mistakes in my life.
and you know something's wrong when someone who's not into public displays of emotion or affection, actually picks you up off the bathroom floor and hugs you tight and doesn't want to let you go.
that took a lot to do, and that one gesture showed me so much love and caring. and that's what brought me back from the edge.
i started making more of an effort to be social and try to meet new people. i even drove 2 hours to attend an ex-boyfriend from highschool's birthday. which was totally worth it. it was out bush and i had the best time i had had in ages. there was a campfire going and music and a bbq. and i was the only girl game enough to go bushbashing to find more firewood. and i even had the bruises to show off afterwards.
i met some new people over the net, on facebook and myspace of course. and they were fun and nice. they took my mind off things for a while and i started cheering up again.
i had finally started to become my old happy self again, when into my life came the most wonderful guy ever.
Mutha has christened him Jawsome. and jawsome he is.
i've laughed so much when i've spoken to him. he is gorgeous and his personality is absolutely perfect.
i guess the easiest way to describe him (according to other family members) is me, but more laid back, and a guy (duh).
we like a lot of the same things. tv, music, life in general. and even the Teen has said we seem to be perfectly matched.
i hope so. i love him with all my heart and i'm hoping this lasts forever.
i'm moving down to NSW with him in a few short weeks. i'll keep you guys posted on how that goes. i'll have a fair bit more time to blog for a while, so i'll be able to put more detail in.
btw... the dance crew came 3rd in Australia's Got Talent, which kinda sucks.
also, TGG was in a motorbike accident last week. did a short stint in hospital but is out now. very bruised and battered, but it could have been a lot worse. his bike's been written off. apparently the only thing left worth salvaging MIGHT be the motor. if that.....
and i finish my traineeship on August 1. i have about 3 books left to finish. and in saying that, i should finish up and continue working on them so i can take the extra day off and stay with Jawsome for that extra 24hrs.
ciao bananas!!
2 comments:
'bout time we got an update, thank you!
yes, that was a dark time. glad he was home, and i didn't have to come home and find the mess. *shakes head* always leaving me stuff to clean up ... *grin*
yeah! moving out! w00t! that's it, make a strike for indpendence. *loves you much* it's a big scarey move.
Congratulations on making back to the land of the living. Breaking up is never easy (you know me, how many times did I do it?). It doesn't get any easier. The only advice I can give is to remember who you are on your own. It's important to work out who you are without another person in your life. When you have that down pat, the other person just completes it. Never rely on someone else to make you happy. Be happy in yourself and let them add to it.
Make sense? I do wish you all the best with Jawsome, but please honey, go slowly. I know the first few months are heady (I moved in with Him after 3 months) but you need to make sure you have a solid base to build a friendship on above all else, cause that's the most important part.
All the very best to you both and good luck with the move. Embrace life with open arms and lap up every experience, good and bad - they make us who we are!
xxxx
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