it's sad when u see someone u haven't seen in ages, and they've let themselves go, in a REALLY bad way.
like, to the point where u look at them and think "what the hell went wrong with u??".
it's really sad cause they were once full of promise and a cheery, somewhat carefree person. and now they're basically a shadow of their former selves.
it makes me think back to all the fun times that were shared what feels like an eternity ago.
sometimes i wish time could be turned back. if i knew then what i knew now. i guess some things would be the same. but others would be heaps different.
if i COULD go back in time, would one phone conversation have stopped a friend from dying?
if i was a stronger person then, would i have had the strength to walk away when i wanted to, instead of when HE wanted to?
would i have ended up with someone different again? would i be living in a totally different place?
would my family situation have been any different? would i have had children by now?
i think, if i could retain the knowledge from now but go back in time, i would have walked away sooner. but i still wouldn't have moved back to gladstone as i was thinking.
and i KNOW i would have waited for him. because he is the best thing that's happened to me in a very long time. and even though he can be an arse, he's MY arse. and i love him. and i wouldn't change that for the world.
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There is probably a good reason we can't go back and change stuff. Not sure what it is, but we learn from our mistakes (and other people's mistakes) and it makes us the people we are.
You are lucky you have love in the here and now. We can look back and remember fondly what we had, but we should always look to what we have and be grateful. We are all blessed in our own little way, and you, my child, are blessed with a wonderful family (and the best aunt in the world!). xxx
argh! reflective posts and not a name in sight!!
=)
love you too. more than your aunt does...
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