just a quick note to get up to date......

well i now have a job. it's not much, but it's an income.
i'm a casual at coles, in the deli department. i hate meat, but the girls i work with are nice and some of them know how to have a bit of fun.

honestly though, i'm starting to not like it so much, and i've only worked a few shifts.
i came home the other day after just 40 mins behind the counter (i was out back doing some food safety stuff on the computer for most of my shift), and i was appalled at the fact that my hands smelled like prawns.

i could handle it if they smelled like the ham or even the chicken loaf. buuuuut nope. they smelled like the goddamned prawns!!!!! it's enough to make me gag.

so basically on my days off i'll be looking for another job. cause it's not like the boss is gonna move me to the checkouts. which is where i wanted to be in the first place.

and also.... i had to do some shopping recently for an outing this tuesday. yep, i'm off to taree to watch the cup on tv. but apparently we're going in the morning.....

and of course, i was told i have to dress up. and me being me, i have nothing nice to wear.
so it was off to the shops. and there's not many here.
eventually i found a skirt that looked really nice on the hanger, and one that looked ok on the hanger. when i tried them on, the one that looked really nice, looked crap on me. but the other one looked really nice on me, so i got that. all i had to do was find a shirt. and do u think i could find anything nice to go with it?? nope. so we went home and i looked in my cupboard to see if i still had a shirt i got ages ago and never wore cause it didn't fit right.

i tried on my little outfit at home, and surprisingly, it all went together quite well. i don't really have dressy shoes, but i'm just gonna wear my stockings and the pirate shoes. at least i know they're comfortable.

maybe i'll take some photos or something. no promises though.

It's the grooviest thing, its the perfect dream

so i'm sitting at home and i'm rather bored.... so i thought i'd blog. kinda pointless blogging without having anything to fill the blog with... but that's the way it goes some days i guess.

the past few days have been kinda strange to say the least.

Jawsome borrowed the latest season of house on dvd from his mum and had a marathon day on the weekend. maybe saturday arvo... i can't remember.

but either way, the 2-part season final.. yeah can't say i was a fan. by the end of the second part, i was pretty much bawling my eyes out. and i wasn't even watching all of it! and the worst part was that i really needed to pee, but i didn't want to get up cause i didn't want Jawsome to think i was crying again. but at the end of the episode, the loungeroom was dark, and i had tears streaming down my cheeks, and i just saw the top of jawsome's head pokiing up over the couch and beckoning me over for a cuddle.

"oh no", i says to myself. "he's totally gonna laugh at me".
i leant down for a hug and heard him sniffle.
it made me feel a little better, and also a little worse. i don't like the idea of seeing my guy upset at anything. it was odd. but it brought us a little closer. i got lots of cuddles after that.

on saturday morning, we went to inspect the markets. they were kinda pissy. like the sunday markets at kmart used to be. but i actually think these were a little bigger.....

after we wasted time adn walked to bilo to get some water, we went to the beach and walked out to the point and stood on the rocks. within a few minutes we were rewarded with a marvellous sight. fins breaking the surface of teh water. i've never seen wild dolphins before. only on tv. but there were about 10 of them. all just playing in the water. not jumping like u see on tv, but just casually poking their noses out of the water every now and then. it was so pretty. i think later this week i might go for a walk and take my ipod and just sit there and see if they'll be there again.

also, this week, so far i've made brownies, only a packet mix, but they still tasted damned good!

and today i made jelly. raspberry flavour. i might have a little bit before the boys get home.

hey i guess i've managed to make a post out of not much at all.

"the use of rhetoric to obscure a lack of content".
best line i've ever heard, and i use it frequently.

so until next time, in which i'll hopefully be able to dish out either some good goss or some good news!!

where did i put my spatula??

*wanders off*

just an update.....

just cause it's totally blog-worthy....

THE NEW BED ARRIVES TODAAAAAAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

yeah i'm stoked. i'll actually be able to sleep good for once.

and while on the topic of sleeping, last night i had trouble sleeping, and i went to move, and i put my hand above my head, and hit Jawsome in the face... and he skitzed out big time. i ended up having to put my hand on his shoulder and tell him it was just me and apologised for whacking him in the face. he mumbled that it was ok and rolled over and went back to breathing heavily. and no, i don't mean snoring. lol.

in the morning, i again apologised for scaring him, but he didn't remember. he didn't even recall talking to me.

i smiled to myself and remembered Sunny on the couch that day during a discussion between Mutha and myself.

"mumblemumbleSEVENTYFIVE!!"

still makes me giggle to this day.


and still no luck on the job front, but i've applied for something that i actually would like to do, but i'm not gonna say anything more in case i jinx it.

there was something else i was gonna say... but i forgotten already... oh well. maybe i'll remember it and put it in the next blog.

farewell readers!!
(yes... both of you...)

gud eeeeevening

so i totally had a rough draft of what to write in here today all ready to go, but i re-read it and it sounded crap, so i'm just gonna wing it. it always sounds better that way anyway.

so i'm now living in a lovely little beach town. it really does remind me of gladstone and tannum. but way smaller. plus instead of pregnant teens, it's mostly filled with old people. Jawsome likes to call it God's waiting room. it's where they go to gather before they dieeeeeeee. lol.

the move went rather well. the only negative part was that i couldn't fit everything i wanted in the car. we had to leave behind the guitar, bass and amp. but at least the keyboard fit. now i just have to find my other piano books.....

as for the trip itself, we got up at 3, started packing the car, i went in and woke the children and said my goodbyes (i tried hard not to cry when i said goodbye to the Teen - yes, i'll admit that) and we finally managed to leave around 4.30. I drove the first leg and Jawsome went back to sleep.

our first stop was ballina for breakfast. it was marvellous. my hash brown was soggy and then the car didn't want to start. Jawsome was supposed to do the second leg, but the car decided to chuck the shits. so i had to pop the bonnet and wiggle the wires. it started. which was fine. then Jawsome and i continued on our little voyage.

i think the next stop was near coffs. i really can't remember. i had a bit of a nap at some point. but we stopped at a little servo, topped up the fuel even though it was only sitting near halfway (fuel economy is wonderful!!) and we grabbed some more drinks and munchies and i took over the driving again.

i think it was around 1 when we stopped at at Jawsome's parents' place for lunch. i was incredibly nervous for some reason. but it was all fine and dandy. apparently his family likes me. which is really good. made me feel better anyway.

not long after we arrived at the unit, we got a visit from one of Jawsome's mates, we shall call him Booms (yeah i don't know why either). He came to show off his new car and invite us to Newcastle for the night for much drinkies. it didn't take much the persuade us to go. Jawsome did the driving and we took the scenic way. we shall never take that way again. it's pretty crap. dirt road. lots of hills. yeah. need i say more.

but we stayed in newy for the night and got drunk. it was fun. i learned some drinking games.

speaking of newy, Jawsome is getting ready to go again tonight and i'm joining him. so i must bid thee all adieu and i shall fill u all in when i return. which may not be until sunday night. lol. yay!

ciao bananas!

Just an update...

So it's been months since i've blogged about anything really worthwhile...
so to keeps you guys up to date, here's a quick rundown on what's happened in the past 4/5 months....

The Green Guy (or TGG) and i were engaged for a while. about 8 months roughly. but that's since fallen apart. long story there. i don't know if i'll ever tell it here in full.

but anyway...

he got himself a new girl only weeks after he dumped me (that's the bit that i was most pissed off about). i'd seen her in his dance class too. and yeah i was totally jealous. she's everything i'm not. slim, gorgeous, dances well, gets along well with people.

yeah, as u can guess i was rather depressed. he'd replaced me with someone i could never even hope to be.

the dance crew made it to the finals of australia's got talent and i am so proud of them!

i went to melbourne for the filming of the semi finals. that's when i first actually properly met TGG's new girl. i shall call her Pixie.

i offered to drive her to teh airport, so we met up in teh city and went for maccas. we got to chatting about random things and then we discovered it was too late to drive, so we took the train instead. that was still fun.

the next day i flew down and pixie picked me up from the melbourne airport. we hung around the city and did some sight seeing and just enjoyed chatting about anything and everything. i love her. she is really an awesome girl.

once we got to the studio for the filming, we were both kinda tipsy (lol) and excited to be on a TV SHOW!!! *squeal*

we got to meet red and grant. that was so much fun. and when the boys performed we got up and screamed our little hearts out.

there was also a band that had entered, they unfortunately didn't make it through to the final, but u should check out their myspace : http://www.myspace.com/3stripeave

once we returned from melbourne, things took a slight turn for the worse for me.
seeing Pixie and TGG together made me remember that i felt so alone and that it wasn't fair that he'd found someone so soon and i still had no-one. so i kinda made a few mistakes.

long story short, i'm just glad that daddy had the strength to help me, when everyone else seemed stumped with what to do. i know i scared some people and i never meant for that to happen.

the way that i was feeling that one night, i'm pretty sure that if i was left on my own, my family wouldn't be complete anymore.
it's like i was stuck in a black hole. no light or hope could make it through. i just wanted it all to end. and i was on the brink of making one of the worst mistakes in my life.
and you know something's wrong when someone who's not into public displays of emotion or affection, actually picks you up off the bathroom floor and hugs you tight and doesn't want to let you go.
that took a lot to do, and that one gesture showed me so much love and caring. and that's what brought me back from the edge.

i started making more of an effort to be social and try to meet new people. i even drove 2 hours to attend an ex-boyfriend from highschool's birthday. which was totally worth it. it was out bush and i had the best time i had had in ages. there was a campfire going and music and a bbq. and i was the only girl game enough to go bushbashing to find more firewood. and i even had the bruises to show off afterwards.

i met some new people over the net, on facebook and myspace of course. and they were fun and nice. they took my mind off things for a while and i started cheering up again.

i had finally started to become my old happy self again, when into my life came the most wonderful guy ever.

Mutha has christened him Jawsome. and jawsome he is.

i've laughed so much when i've spoken to him. he is gorgeous and his personality is absolutely perfect.
i guess the easiest way to describe him (according to other family members) is me, but more laid back, and a guy (duh).

we like a lot of the same things. tv, music, life in general. and even the Teen has said we seem to be perfectly matched.

i hope so. i love him with all my heart and i'm hoping this lasts forever.

i'm moving down to NSW with him in a few short weeks. i'll keep you guys posted on how that goes. i'll have a fair bit more time to blog for a while, so i'll be able to put more detail in.


btw... the dance crew came 3rd in Australia's Got Talent, which kinda sucks.

also, TGG was in a motorbike accident last week. did a short stint in hospital but is out now. very bruised and battered, but it could have been a lot worse. his bike's been written off. apparently the only thing left worth salvaging MIGHT be the motor. if that.....

and i finish my traineeship on August 1. i have about 3 books left to finish. and in saying that, i should finish up and continue working on them so i can take the extra day off and stay with Jawsome for that extra 24hrs.

ciao bananas!!

workplace shenanigans...

so last night i took the teen to kfc at about 9pm cause i saw an ad and decided i wanted some...
and the cops had blocked off part of blunder road...
so we had to detour through the guts of inala to get to the kfc....
which was fine and dandy.

then we were coming back and i thought i'd go back along blunder road to suss out what happened...but no.. the cops had blocked off BOTH sides of the road..
so we had to do a Uturn and go back through the guts of inala.....
turns out there was a house on fire.

we drove past this morning and there were still cops and fireys in attendance.
the house was burnt to a crisp. apparently.
i couldn't see. i was driving.

and when i got to the office this morning, i was greeted by a workmate with "security is on the way, DS has had a fall".

"oh shit", i think to myself. not good.
she's almost 60.
turns out a huge huntsman spider had run across her desk and given her a fright.
she tripped over her chair and landed on her hip, and someone else thinks she hit her head as well.

she had a headache, couldn't see properly, and was in too much pain to move very far.
they managed to sit her on a chair untill security arrived. he tried to get her into a wheelchair, but she couldn't move for the amount of pain, and once she was moved, she had intense nausea. and her colour was way off. she had gotten worse. so an ambulance was called.

about an hour later, a cute guy in an ambo uniform walked in, followed by a REALLY cute guy in an ambo uniform.
the general office staff gathered around to watch and distract DS from being in too much pain while they stuck her with needles.

they gave her the magic green stick to help with the pain, and it was doing ok until they needed to move her. then, just as a precautionary measure... they gave her morphine so they could get her up.

by the time she was ready to be wheeled out on the stretcher, she was so far spaced out that it was actually kinda funny. she started waving like the queen and we all started cracking jokes to make her laugh.
one of the girls went in the ambulance with her to the hospital. this chick is a mad hatter, so we know she'll make DS laugh and distract her from being sore.

all in all.. an interesting morning. let's hope the rest of the day is just as fun.

ps.. they killed the spider....

pps.. the ambos were rory (the cute one) and wade (the really cute one)

it's about bloody time...

hello again to all my readers! (yes.. all 3 of you... if that....)

i apologise for the huge break in blogging. there's been a fair bit happen in the past months.

there will be further details when i have more time, but for now i have to finish up my work for the day and move on to the last of my tafe stuff.

I HAVE 7 WEEKS LEFT!!!!

gosh it's all gone so fast....